Friends often marvel at how quickly I make changes in my life. Whether it be getting a new hairstyle, which I do quite often, to buying a house in a week to jumping head first into a new relationship. One minute I’m moving to Cali, the next I’m buying a house in NC. One minute I’m making plans to travel cross country (which I still plan to d0) and the next I’m asking for ideas to set up an art studio in my detached garage.
I guess if you look at it you could say I’m flaky, indecisive, flighty, running, searching. My father would say that I don’t know what I want…to do with my life, be in my life…he would say I need to make a choice and stick with it.
Maybe I am always searching…to do more, to be more, to experience different things. So last year I wanted to move to Cali, to be near my best friend and like minded souls. This year I am buying a house in NC that needs some work. I’ve always wanted to rehab a house and now is my chance to do that.
I often wonder why I do not have an aversion to change when I see so many others who really don’t like it one bit. Maybe its because of things that have happened in my life and it was just easier to embrace change than fight it. I was talking to my brother the other day and he made the comment that I’ve been through a lot of crap in my life. This isn’t the first time someone has said that to me. I often chuckle because I don’t look at it that way. Yes, my parents divorced when I was a teenager, yes we moved in the middle of high school, yes, I lost my brother way too young, yes, I went through a divorce, yes, I’ve moved quite a bit, changed careers, had other failed relationships…but honestly, who hasn’t had a lot of crap in their lives. I look at all of these things and see how they have shaped who I am today. I don’t wallow in the past, I look toward the future and try so very hard to live in the moment.
Maybe my life is an example of what ‘not’ to do…or maybe its to show that you don’t have to make a choice and stick with it forever. Its ok at age 43 to start training to teach pilates, buy a house that needs some tlc, dream of putting an art studio in your backyard.
Its ok to embrace change.
There’s still time to enter the giveaway from my previous post. I’ll choose a winner on Thursday March 3rd after the home inspection results arrive…so enter by midnight on March 2nd.